Loopty loop

Yesterday I was cruising down the road of life. Listening to my driving music and dancing with joy. Then all of a sudden, out of nowhere, I got thrown for a loop.
Life, as I know it, may never be the same.
It doesn't matter what road you travel, eventually, we all wind up in the same spot. Lifes roads are full of dead ends, road blocks, and pot holes. And navigating through them is almost impossible. But we manage on a day to day basis.
Yesterday, my road came to a halt. It is a road I have been on for Years and years, a branch of a road that belonged to someone else. My soul sister. Now, she is lying lifeless in an ICU and I am staring down the road of life that was OURS. This stretch of land belonged only to us. It was things we have experienced and been through. Places where my road or hers became one because we have been so dependent on each other. Or places where the sun shone blissfully because she was always the bright spot in my dark days.
Yes, I have been thrown for a loop of massive porportions. I am traveling upside down because my life flipped topsy turvey.
We are human. We weren't meant to be able to navigate through the times and the seasons of life alone. So naturally, we cling to other humans. Humans who are just as beautifully messed up as we are. Then one day, they are gone (or on the fence of life and death) and we are left alone. Trying to navigate our way through life. Looking for some sign that everything will be okay again.
The lesson that I have been taught through this wild ride is that we are meant to love each other but our only long lasting ally is God. We are made weak, so he can make us strong. People will walk in and out of our lives and He remains steady. Through rain and tears he stands strong. Loving us all the while.
He doesn't navigate us over the hurdles of life. He runs through with us, cheering us on. He walks with us. He drives with us and sets our paths on the right course when we are off track.
The reason we are so drawn to depend on other humans is to teach us that there are none who won't let us down. We learn this to understand where our hope and direction really come from.

My life has taken a different direction from the route I was on. The road is long and difficult, but I can already see the light at the end of the tunnel. It's far off and hard to see. But He has set a path before me and I will travel it.
No matter what happens I know that my best friend and I's path will meet again. My HOPE has promised me that.
So for now, I trudge along the road he has placed me on. Tired and weary from all the pain. But I know there is something wonderful just beyond one of these hills and I'm going for it. Because my heart, my faith, my trust, and my hope are all in my Navigator.
He sees me. He knows me. And he loves me. And no matter what else is going on, that has to be enough.
-- Post From My iPhone